Tell us about yourself
I am a professional organizer, certified in the KonMari Method™. My goal through tidying is to teach people how to live a more conscious life. I believe it’s important for us all to be more thoughtful about the things with which we choose to surround ourselves. In this age of overconsumption and Amazon Prime, it is easy to find yourself surrounded by forgotten nonsense - it all just piles up after a while!
I am currently taking sewing lessons so that I can learn how to mend and upcycle my own clothing! It’s important for us to care for our closets. Through fast fashion, we have all been taught that clothing is cheap, disposable, and easily replaceable. By learning how to sew, I have the power to extend the life cycle of my clothing. I am cultivating a conscious closet through repairing and refreshing my apparel instead of disposing of it after the first sign of damage.
How old are you?
I turned 26 in December!
Where do you live?
I live in the cutest apartment ever in Hollywood! I’m new to LA, I moved here in April of last year for a job which I ended up quitting two months later.
Are you single, married, divorced, in a relationship? Open relationship?
I’m single and not interested, honestly! I’m focusing on building my life and feeling secure in my business and career before I partner up.
When I was back home in New Jersey for the holidays, I found my aunt’s old ring that my grandfather had given to me years ago. So gorgeous, so sentimental. Now I wear it every day like an engagement ring. I am making a commitment to myself! I take me for better or for worse. To love and to cherish. To have and to hold from this day forward. I do!
What was your relationship to sex like growing up?
I was totally a late bloomer. I got my first period when I was 15 years old and developed the summer going into my junior year of high school. I’m pretty sure I grew 2 cup sizes in one summer. It was sudden. And I didn’t really sexually awaken until college, honestly. I was a child! And not really interested in sex - it totally intimidated me. I was still scared of kissing boys going into college.
What were the events in your life that have made you the woman you are today?
I became pretty severely depressed my junior year of high school. I was on medication, seeing psychiatrists and therapists, and I even took some time off of school to deal with it. As I started to feel more balanced, I questioned my place socially in the different cliques at school. I realized I just didn’t like the people I was “supposed to” hang out with. They all thought they were way too cool. That’s when I started befriending all of the people I actually liked and began expressing myself through style and fashion. I was doing my thing, wearing vintage and orange lipstick.
But then I went to the college I was “supposed to” go to and found myself surrounded by the people I was “supposed to” like again. It was horrible. It took me about a semester to realize that something needed to change. I took a chance and applied to Savannah College of Art and Design with a portfolio of poetry I had written, paired with photos I had taken on my iPhone. A shot in the dark but I got in! I cried the day I was accepted to SCAD. Transferring is the best decision I’ve ever made in my entire life. Period. I would not be the person I am today if I didn’t have those experiences and meet those people. I was surrounded by individuals who encouraged me to be myself. Everyone was unapologetically authentic and perfectly weird. Finally, I had found my crowd.
What are some of your self-care rituals? How do you connect with your sensuality?
I love getting high and trying on all of the clothes in my closet. I’ll create new outfits and basically have a mini fashion show for myself. I’ll strut and pose in front of the mirror wearing that perfect outfit that makes me feel like an undeniable bombshell. I look amazing every time and totally feel myself.
How do you manage your schedule to make time for yourself?
You won’t want to hang out with me if I don’t have at least one night a week to myself. Crowds and constant socialization exhausts me, I need alone time to recharge and feel like myself again.
What are the ways you’re continuing to explore and learn about sensuality?
I am stepping into my sexual power with the help of my AMAZING therapist, Carli Jo (@cannabissensualitycoach). Through her guidance and exercises, I am learning to love my body and feel sexually empowered. This strength and confidence can expand into every aspect of my life. Examples of my homework from Carli Jo is to say “I love my body” when looking in the mirror every day, and practice body meditation so that I can feel and breathe into any blocks or pain. She’s an angel!
What are some of your favorite products you use to connect with self?
I smoke cannabis every day. It helps me get out of my head and eases my anxiety at the end of the day. Without weed, I would stay up until 2am every night.
Glossier balm dot com definitely means something to me. I have multiple. Rose on my bedside table, mango on my coffee table, and coconut in my purse. There’s a balm for every mood.
I love burning Palo Santo before I get into bed. I can feel the energy shift from the smoke. It feels nice to wash away all those icky, bad vibes from a long day before getting into bed.
How do you see the relationship between sensuality and sexuality existing?
Sensuality and sexuality do go hand in hand but are actually totally different. Sensuality can be mundane - like cutting and arranging flowers around my home. It’s sensual, not sexual. Melting into the big comfy chair in the corner of my bedroom to meditate is sensual. Anything that feels right and feels good is sensual. Understanding our sensual arousals can light the path to discovering how to experience and ask for deeper sexual pleasure with a partner or by yourself.
Photos by Justin Rosenberg (@jsrphotos)